Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

I don't know wat does it mean? I s it love? is it jelousy? is it ebing spoiled? being stupid? or jsut being stubern,
but it just make me jelouse, i feel that jelousybefore too, i belive it was just with pg that it hurts, and with R that made me cry for him,
hahahaha, but i can see even thought its funny when it hurts, it s liek candel light, it can burn, or maybe jiggle . bot it does feel liek candle, candels are beautiful, and colourfull, like him, ( beauty can be a bad thing) ( well i would never thought that i fell for it.)
but i did
and i never thougth i would fell in love
but i did
....
i used to think i can control it,
and soem times i did

I remember the first time, when i was trying to control my love, which i never was able to do it in full extend, i find out its just "love" that i am looking for maybe the person doesn't matter as much.
may be this "love" is exactly that platonic love, thats why we r always missing it. and nevere feel fulfiled.
maybe thats why when i see him, i dont' feel any thing, ( or i would ust discover how short he is loooool )
and as soon as he leave i feel burning. or maybe i jsut think i am.
i wold never forget his cold eyes.
those eyes who made me feel like "zamharir"
.....
and why i am still thinking about him?
and why i'm still checking his pic? and missing them?

being stupid?
being in love with zamharir? or do i see myself in him?


My first crash was beacuse of oppsition, the opposite attracts. Dara was all the courage i wanted to have, all things i dreamed of doing. and REza was like my dad, a "man"
and "K" is maybe jsut a cute face, + smart.+ charm.
is it taht hard to get over charm?

there is no way u can be in love with charm of zamharir. or maybe u can ( that makes a good story)